Jan 25, 2014
My first: I dressed up in a tux shirt, a bow tie, and a black coat and scarf.
My friend Pam was turning 50 and, of course, there was a party! I decided to dress up in my tux shirt (a leftover from my old singing telegram days), a bow tie, and a black coat and scarf...kind of the dapper look. I have NEVER gone in public dressed so much like, well, like a dude! Not that I am the most feminine of dressers, but this was way out of my comfort zone.
As I was getting ready, I was rehearsing in my mind all the clever and funny things I would say to anyone who would comment (or listen) at the party. I was READY! But...then the strangest thing happened. As I was getting closer to the party site, I started to feel a bit anxious, wondering "what will people think". There goes my mother again...she keeps "showing up" and she's not even PRESENT. (That, of course, is not strange, but a common occurrence in my life.) Anyway, after the anxiety subsided a bit, I forced myself into thinking "Hey, this is my life and these are my moments!" I will not take away from Pam's moment, but I will definitely live mine!
I think you look pretty schnazzy!. The comment about your mom getting in your head is so real for me too. I often make decisions based on what my mom would think and I am well past the age to be concerned about it!! They have such big influence on our lives for much longer than we care to realize. One day, I was going to the park with my young nephew. I was putting a bandanna on my head like a doo rag. My nephew looked at me and said,"aren't you going to be embarrassed for people to see you like that?" I immediately said, "NO." We need to teach our young people to not be so self conscious.
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